Tug O' War

[fixadick]

July 25th 2010

Hi... My name is Shawn. This is going to be where I blog and journal my Foreskin Restoration Journey...

To start off, I've thought about doing this now for quite some time. The moment that I found out that there was a difference between cut and uncut and that I didn't have the choice I was pissed! Why would someone think that they had the power to decide such things for people? I'm not Jewish, but I was raised in a Fundamentalist Baptist Church where every letter of the Bible is ment to be taken litterally...

Anyway, I digress... I purchased the TLC Tugger about a year ago, but for the most part it's been sitting under my nightstand un-used... I did try it out for a few days after I got it in, but I was experiencing some discomfort as I walk very quickly...

The reason I've decided to start this process once again is because when I first got the device the only person, other than my partner Josh, that I told was my FRIEND Josh M. He supported me 100% and could understand as he is an intact male. Well he called me yesterday and for some reason mentioned the TLC Tugger and asked if I had still been doing that. And, of course, I haven't... So it made me revisit the reasons that I want to do this and THIS TIME, I hope, I will stick with it and be successfull... I really would like to find someone to be a tugging buddy that I could discuss all this with and maybe even share results!

As for my partner Josh, he knows about it, but takes the "Whatever" attitude about it. He thinks I'm silly and doesn't really support me. He wants me to do anything that will make me happy, but he doesn't understand. To me, the uncut penis is SO much more appealing sexually and physically (I'd imagine). Whenever I've had sexual contact with an uncut male, the experience is SO much more exciting to me... I can only imagine what it will be like to own a facsimly... :)

So if anyone out there is reading this, I hope that you'll follow me along in my tug o' war, and maybe I'll find my tuggin buddy!

~Shawn

[pi314]

It might help if you put what state/area you live. Its a little hard to do this type of thing long distance.

[fixadick]

Pi,

I don't have to have a tuggin buddy that lives in the same location, just someone that I can get to know from anywhere, that'll help me stay on course and I can help them stay on course... :)

[fixadick]

Well, I was doing some research today and discovered that I still have my frenulum intact! Now, I don't think it comes up as high as it should, but who am I to judge... LOL It connects from my "looser" skin to the penis just under the head of my penis. I guess that's where it's supposed to go... I've seen some who have it starting just below the urethra... HMM.... Who knows...

But that makes me happy. I've heard from many people, since I've been researching this, that the Frenulum is the most sensative part on the penis, or at least one of them... I may just have to order a notched TLC cone... I have noticed that I get a little discomfort in that area sometimes...

So Last night I didn't sleep with my Tugger. I only used the Your Skin cone portion of the tugger. I did have to get up in the middle of the night to go use the bathroom. When I did I had an errection and was too tired to let it go down, so I just left it off for the rest of the night.

I've not started tugging today, but I wanted to take a shower first before I put it on... I hope that my first tugging day at work goes well. I've found that sometimes it slipps off if I walk too quickly and starts to dangle somewhere around my knees... LOL

Ah well...

~Shawn

[fixadick]

Well I have some questions and I wonder if someone could help me out... I have hair that grows up very high on the ventral side (underside) of my penis. It grows all the way up the shaft. For the most part I always keep it shaved down, but now that I'm tugging I don't want hair on my foreskin... So questions...

Since, right now, I'm probably at a CI-2 and am just trying to get anything to grow, will this be a problem? Will I be able to pull newer skin later on that's not hair growing and make that grow?

I started tugging today around 1:30 and have been tugging all day. It's 6:43 now... I've had to re-adjust 3 times today cause my skin is getting irritated... It's not really pain, just discomfort. But anyway... I also went and bought a knee brace today so that the straps won't chaffe the back of my knees.... I'm just worried that the safety pin is going to come undone and jab into my leg. Lol

Heres hoping that doesn't happen!
~Shawn

[z726]

Try not to tug too long or so hard that your skin feels irritated. The amount of time and tension needed differs from person to person, but for you it sounds like 5 hours may have been plenty - perhaps more than enough. The new skin growth and any needed healing will occur during rest periods when there's no tension.

I've got hair on the ventral portion of my shaft as well, though it's much thinner than pubic hair and colorless. I don't worry about it, and even forget it's there unless I have to remove tape from that area. People here have all kinds of tips on hair removal, so maybe someone can come along with advice on that.

[fixadick]

It keeps falling off today! I took a shower and then put my tugger on around, again, 1:30pm and it just keeps falling off! I don't think I'm putting too much tension on it, but for some reason, it's falling off... Also, today it's a little more sensative than yesterday. It could be, like z726 said, that I tugged too long yesterday. So for now I'm just going to use the retaining cone for the rest of the day and leave off the tugger...

[Dasher]

Don't worry too much about the Tugger falling off at first, it happens to everyone the first week or two. Heck, I've been using a Tugger for 6 months now, and this week, one day it fell off 3 times -- mostly because I probably put it on like a dumbass LOL.

You are lucky to be starting off at CI-2! I had to start from scratch at CI-1.

Best of luck with restoring!

[fixadick]

Dasher,

I do consider myself lucky to be starting at CI-2. I think I have a very loose circumsicion. Here's a little background story about my circumsicion.... My mother told me, when I was younger, that when I was born the doctor who delivered me didn't want to circumcise me because he didn't feel it was necessary and frankly didn't want to becuase he didn't think it should be done... My parents insisted and he still refused... They called another doctor and had him do it... So I'm thinking that the two docs talked with each other and decided that it should be a loose circumsision... I've always had very loose skin down there and just this week discovered that I still have my frenulum... Also, I found out that my partner DOESNT have his! This explains SO much as to why I get off ALOT quicker than he does... I've always been able to get off, sometimes even flacid, in less than a min. If I try... Lol but for him it always takes a good five mins if not longer... So... I guess I'm blessed to have a "partial"... Lol

[fixadick]

Ok getting a little frustrated today. I started tugging around 2:15 and had to take off my tugger by 5pm. I was having discomfort so bad, that I guess u could call it pain... :) It felt like the tugger was SLOWLY pulling off, but it wasn't. When I would re-apply it hurt... It's very tender and sensative, but there's no bumps or scars or anything... My glans and the skin right below the corona is a little red, but that's it... So I'm thinking it was chaffeing... I don't have my tension too tight I don't think... When I Put the tugger on and the tension was applied it didn't hurt, just throughout the day it started to hurt...

After taking off my tiger I tried to put the skin cone on and be damned if it didn't keep falling off... So right now I'm just going all natural... I wonder if my eight hour tugging day this past Monday had anything to do with the tenderness I'm having today? I don't want to go too quickly and cause damage, but it's like I'm having to stop before I've even started! Any advice people?

Who knows... Disgust!

[fixadick]

I'm gong to start tugging manually for a bit and see howthat goes... Even though I'm at CI-2 I'm thinking that part of my problem with the discomfort and all is because my dorsal skin is a little tighter than the ventral skin... ( so happy I was in the medical profession long enough to know all these terms) lol

[Tally]

I don't have my tension too tight I don't think...
Sounds like you are using too much tension.

Tension is variable. It is based on how long you can wear the device. If your device is comfortable when you put it on but you start hurting after a while, then you are using too much tension for the time you are tugging. Reduce your tension if you want to wear a device for a long time. This web page has a good explanation of tugging time and tension: http://foreskinrestore.com/tensionandstages.html

The best advice is to take it slow and easy in the beginning. You need to train your skin and get it used to the stress of tugging. If you jump into tugging full bore without letting your skin get used to it and without you learning how to treat your skin, you will have pain and probably not the best progress. Tugging is similar to working out in that your first day you don't go full bore in the gym. You need to build up to a sustainable level.

[Dasher]

Tally, thanks for posting that and the link. What you wrote is the best description of tension I've read.

Fixadick, the important thing in the beginning is not to get discouraged. When I first started using the Tugger, it was something truly new and different and an obvious intrusion into my daily routine. I had problems with it falling off, I had difficulty getting the strap right and adjusted to the best place. There were also questions to be answered. Should I wear this downtown? Only at home? Should I cut a hole in the front of my shorts or just use the fly? Should I wear the Tugger at night? Etc. etc. But after a few weeks, you work through all this. The important thing is just keep going.

I came to the Tugger from manual tugging, which had been successful for me and even necessary before I could begin using the Tugger. This was because I had been clipped pretty tight (thankfully, you don't have this problem).

I like manual tugging and still do it, but manual tugging for me is something that I can only do for a few minutes in the morning. The really nice thing about the Tugger is that it lets you take advantage of what would otherwise be wasted time that could be used in restoring. And because foreskin restoration is a long process, besides having patience, you also need a practical way to cut down the length of the process. The TLC Tugger does that.

I first found out about foreskin restoration in 1988 in an article in Uncut magazine. It was about tape, but taping just wasn't for me. So I did nothing until I began manual tugging just over a year ago. Doing nothing was my big mistake.

What Ron has done has revolutionized the whole field of FR. He devised a clever way to bypass the taping and uncomfortable film canisters and all that jerryrigged uncomfortable stuff. He is a true pioneer in FR. He is a modest man and doesn't blow his own horn, but without him and his invention, a lot of us would be taking 7 to 10 years or more to restore instead of only 3 or 4.

Fixadick, I know you will be successful in your restoring because you know that restoring is the right thing to do and you seem to have much more than the minimum amount of determination to do it. You have also been blessed by having a "head start" with the loose skin. Best of luck, dude :)

[fixadick]

Thanks ALOT Dasher! What you wrote really means alot to me! I know that's probably weird since I don't really know you, but you're someone who's been doing this longer than I have so Thanks!

I do have a fair amount of determination this time... Everytime I think about being fully restored it gets me excited, in more ways than one... ;) It's something I really want and I'm just going to have to have the patience to stick to it, I get that...

I'm going to try the tugger again today... I have yet to get ready for work, but I'm going to try it... I did mostly manual tugging yesterday and it feels like a workout... Ya know that feeling when you work on a certain set of muscles and you can "feel the burn?" Well that's what I was feelin yesterday... It wasn't uncomfortable, but I could tell something was going on... So anywhoodle...

Thanks guys! And Tally, you're website is FULLY of usefull information... Thanks for that!

~FAD

[Dasher]

Thanks ALOT Dasher! What you wrote really means alot to me! I know that's probably weird since I don't really know you, but you're someone who's been doing this longer than I have so Thanks!

I do have a fair amount of determination this time... Everytime I think about being fully restored it gets me excited, in more ways than one... ;) It's something I really want and I'm just going to have to have the patience to stick to it, I get that...

I'm going to try the tugger again today... I have yet to get ready for work, but I'm going to try it... I did mostly manual tugging yesterday and it feels like a workout... Ya know that feeling when you work on a certain set of muscles and you can "feel the burn?" Well that's what I was feelin yesterday... It wasn't uncomfortable, but I could tell something was going on... So anywhoodle...

Thanks guys! And Tally, you're website is FULLY of usefull information... Thanks for that!

~FAD

You're welcome Fixadick.

Restoration is a slow process and even though you won't see daily (or even monthly) changes, you are somehow aware that something is going on down there. Then some day months into the process, when you least expect it, you whip it out to pee and notice that you've got a foreskin covering half of your glans. Wow. Now that's a pleasant surprise!

When this happens, it reminds you that foreskin restoration really does work. It also makes you just want to reach full coverage that much more (I now want to go beyond that and have an overhang, because that's the way my foreskin was before I was circumcised at age 14).

I had a classmate who was intact, but he only had a half-covering foreskin. The way I look at it, I'm not even done restoring yet, and I'm already up to where he is. So I feel pretty good about that.

[fixadick]

August 3rd 2010

Well, this past Sunday was a week of tugging for me... My first week! Although on Saturday and Sunday I had to take a break because my safety pin broke so I had to wait till Sat. after work to buy some more... I just started my regimin again yesterday... (Monday)

My partner and I finally had the talk... :) I was putting on my device when he walked into the room and I hurried to cover up... Even though we've been together for almost four years it just embarsed me for some reason... I mean seriously, he was going to find out and have it confirmed sooner or later, but that's how I reacted...

He told me that he didn't care if I restored and that he'd love me either way... He also said that if I had been intact when we got together it wouldn't have stopped him from loving me. He told me to do whatever made me feel happy and whatever I needed to do for myself... I really didn't know what to say and felt even more embarased... ??? GO FIGURE!

Today I've been tugging for most of the day... I started tugging around 1:30 and took my Tugger off at about 6 then put it back on around 8 or 9 and I'm still wearing it... I can tell a difference. No REAL progress, but the skin is more loose and it doesn't always hurt when I put my tugger on anymore... I'm getting to where my skin is getting very wrinkly, but then again it always has been somewhat... Not wanting to claim that I've made leeps and bounds in a week, but just trying to count my small blessings... :)

I took notice of my partners dick this week and discovered that one, he doesn't have a frenulum and two, he is about a CI-4... Most of the time his skin covers the ridge... How odd that is... I thought that if a person had that much extra skin, that their frenulum would still be intact... ??? Who knows...

I've been noticing on here that many people are trying to reconsile their tugging with their religion... I've been reading both sides of the story and frankly I feel that same about this issue as I do with Christianity and Homosexuality... There ISN'T ONE... Yes there are verses that say this and verses that say that, but in the end there is only one thing that matters in my mind... Jesus said that the greatest commandment is to Love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, mind and soul and then to Love your Neighbor as yourself... And THAT'S IT... Being raised Christian, the grandson of a Baptist Minister no less, I know quite a bit about the Bible, yet I don't profess to know it all... But to me, what Jesus said trumps anything said ANYWHERE else in the Bible... As far as Islam and Judeasim are concerned I have only a spectators view of these religions and can't give a full oppinion...

My current religious beliefs as they stand (Wiccan) has nothing really to say about many minute details of life... There are only two things we Witches really follow... The Wiccan Rede, which simplistically says "And if you HARM NONE, do what you will" and the Charge of the Goddess, which has a phrase that I think about alot, "All acts of Love and Pleasure are my ritual". To me restoration is an act of Self Love. Restoring what the Lord and Lady gave me at Birth is something very important to me. Maybe I should start a Wiccan and Foreskin discussion here, but I don't know... If there are others here then maybe...

Night for now!
FAD

[fixadick]

August 25th 2010

So today marks a month of tuggin! It's surprisingly not been that hard to do... I thought it would be harder... But now I get up, shower and put on my tugger... There have been days that I've skipped, but when my schedule goes back to normal, so does my tugging...

I've only been tugging with the TLC for maybe 5-8 hours at a time... When I wear it at work I have to adjust it every two hours or so because I'm constantly moving and walking... By about the 5th hour it's causing me pain and sometimes rubbing a callous so I remove it and go on about my business...

I've notcied some progress... Not alot, but enough to make me excited... You can view my progress in the Progress Gallaries... I just updated it tonight...

I can tell that there is more loos skin bunching up around the head of my penis and sometimes when I take off the tugger there is a musky sweet smell... Durring tugging and right when I take it off, the glans is a little shiny, but then returns to normal a few seconds later... I wonder when dekaratinization will begin... I don't want it too happen too soon, cause I can't seem to make my YourSkin Cone stay on by itself... don't know what's up with that... I've tried, but it doesn't work...

I had to go out and buy a whole new wardrobe of underwear to be able to tug comfortably... I used to wear bikini underwear, and now I've switched to long boxer-breifs... I used to wear boxer breifs as a kid when I developed epididemitus (sp?) and had to let my balls hang freely...

Anyway, I'm excited to start another month... I'm going on vacation next week and will be gone for 8 days so I don't know how much tugging I'll get done over those few days, but we'll see...

FAD

[gtabula]

[Post Removed]