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October 30th, 2010, 13:27
Some statements by circumcised men -- distilled by John Erickson from personal communications over the past several years -- motivational for tuggers
...I've wondered what it's like to have a foreskin all my life.
...Adrenalin shoots through me when I hear the word "circumcised." I freeze.
...I couldn't even make myself say "circumcised" until I was in my twenties.
...I hate that word. The sound "cir..." makes me shudder.
...When I read out loud I say the word "situation" so I don't have to say "circumstance."
...I used to think there were two kinds of boys: circumcised boys like me and real boys.
...The fact that other boys were circumcised too never made me feel any better.
...When I was a child I prayed I would get my foreskin back in heaven.
...I wanted to be a girl when I was a child because I knew that girls weren't circumcised.
...I always wondered why women seemed so much more naturally sensitive until it finally dawned on me that I was born equally sensitive, but they cut it off.
...I think of myself and other circumcised men as amputees.
...I have always felt that I was cut off of my foreskin, not vice versa.
...I think of myself as existing in two parts: my missing foreskin and the rest of me.
...I am always thinking: where is my foreskin?
...I feel like half a man.
...I feel as if part of me had been murdered.
...If the only uncircumcised guy in the locker room feels different, imagine how the only circumcised guy feels.
...I went to a nude beach in Yugoslavia and felt like a freak.
...I asked a friend if he felt "different" when he was the only uncircumcised man in the shower and he said, "Yes -- gloriously different."
...Perhaps it's better not to know that one has missed a lifetime of sexual pleasure.
...I'm Jewish and I hate being circumcised.
...I would rather have been BRANDED ON MY BUTTOCKS WITH THE STAR OF DAVID or HAD A FINGER CUT OFF than to have had my penis butchered. When I realized that Judaism cut me off from part of myself, I cut myself off from Judaism.
...I found circumcision MUCH worse than merely being gang raped as a 6 year old.
...Anti-Semitism comes easily to a circumcised gentile.
...I'd give everything I own if I could wear a T-shirt with "UNCUT" printed on it and it could be true.
...I envy my dog.
...The woman I was most in love with had a thing for uncut.
...What possible advantage could there be to removing from the penis its only movable part?
...It hurt. It bled. It left an ugly scar.
...The head of my penis is just dead.
...I now have to masturbate using a catcher's mitt and 00-grade steel wool.
...What circumcision did to my body is bad enough, but what it did to my mind is worse.
...My first sado/masochistic experience was when I was a baby, when I was circumcised. [Computer bulletin board]
...My mother told me she could hear my screams from the other end of the hall.
...My greatest fear to this day is having a knife pulled on me.
...I have nightmares about being circumcised by force.
...I was circumcised by force when I was nine and it has ruined my entire life.
...I was circumcised when I was five -- seventy years ago. I felt rage then and I still feel rage now.
...I was circumcised when I was a year old. I remember my foreskin. I want my foreskin back.
...I never got used to being circumcised. I just learned to endure it.
...I think I could have accepted a deformity that was an accident of nature, but I can't accept that someone did that to me.
...I have never been able to accept the fact that someone cut part of my penis off when I was a baby. The sheer monstrousness of it haunts every waking moment of my life. Sometimes I think I'm beginning to make some sort of adjustment to it, but then I see an unmutilated man in a magazine or shower and I become overwhelmed by uncontrollable feelings of outrage and disbelief that I was made the victim for life of something so sick. Sometimes I feel I'm at the edge of madness and just can't handle it.
...The title of a story by Harlan Ellison conveys my feelings exactly about having been circumcised when I was born: "I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM."
...It cast a pall over my entire life.
...It's a life sentence at birth.
...Hardest to take was my wife leaving me for a man who was intact.
...I don't have sex with anyone because I wouldn't want to have sex with anyone who would have sex with someone who was circumcised.
...I never let women see my penis because I think it's ugly.
...I have a good sexual relationship with my wife but I'm also turned on by foreskins and have had several uncircumcised lovers. Would I still have been gay if I hadn't been circumcised? I'll never know.
...The only reason I'm gay is that I was circumcised when I was a baby. I feel deprived. It's only with an uncircumcised man that I can have a foreskin. [This man later died of AIDS.]
...My parents could accept that my uncircumcised younger brother and I were both gay, but they couldn't accept that we were lovers.
...How can I contact Foreskin Sharers of America? To find a man whose foreskin I could play with as freely as I would my own if I had one, is my endless quest.
...I masturbate two or three times a day, always to the same fantasy: the image of my foreskin as it would look and feel now, had it not been cut off when I was born.
...I feel that my father betrayed me by letting my mother have me circumcised against his wishes, and I've always sensed that deep down he rejected me because he saw me as damaged.
...I tried several times to ask my mother about what had been done to me; but when I opened my mouth to speak, the words stuck in my throat and no sound came out.
...I think about my mother with her ears docked, like a Doberman's, face down in her coffin, facing hell.
...When I think about what my parents let happen to me, I want to take a razor and slit their throats.
...Damn my parents and their superstitious religious rituals!
...I've never told my parents how I feel.
...I have revenge fantasies about circumcision.
...If I knew who cut my foreskin off, I'd cut off his entire dick.
...I want to kill the doctor who circumcised me.
...My feelings about the doctor who circumcised me are too violent to describe.
...I was just a baby -- I couldn't stop them.
...Butchers!
..."Butchered at Birth" [Printed on T-shirt on teenage boy on MTV, early March 1993]
...Circumcision is life long torture.
...Saying "uncircumcised" is like saying "unamputated" or "unmutilated" or maybe "unstabbed-through-the-heart-and-gored-to-death."
...There's something very, very wrong and very frightening about a society that systematically tortures and mutilates babies.
...Circumcision should be mandatory.
...Why would anyone cut off part of a baby's penis? Why would anyone let himself or anyone else do it?
...I wish I could circumcise every uncircumcised man in the world, so they'd all be like me. I don't have a foreskin and no one else should have one either.
...The worst thing about circumcision is that it produces circumcisers.
...Fear, pain, crippling, disfigurement, and humiliation are the classic ways to break the human spirit. Circumcision includes them all.
...i spent the last 3 weeks chatting up a girl, finally get her naked and she says she doesnt wanna have sex with me because i dont have a foreskin and she thinks a circumcised penis looks weird and wont touch it because she thinks its broken.
"I was circumcised at Brook General Hospital, Ft.Sam Houston, Texas, 5 days after my birth 15 March, 1945 and meatotomized at 7 years due to iatrogenic complication. The double whammy resulting from the foregoing turned me into an INSATIABLE homosexual; I have had carnal contact with 6 females and over 8,000 males spanning almost 50 years of sexual activity. The desensitization from the above mentioned procedures and the psychological trauma resultant therefrom impelled me to find sexual release involving second and tertiary erotic areas of my body e.g. the anus inter alia to provide the stimulus compensation for the loss of the primary sensation ablated in the aforementioned infant circumcision. This has also created the need for extreme forms of sexual release such as orgies and sex in risky environments in which danger is an enhancement providing the extra boost needed to achieve ejaculation; none of the foregoing activities would have been necessary had I been allowed to keep the neural triggers in the foreskin and frenulum. My frenulum appears to have been scraped or excised of about two thirds or three quarters of its original size. Due to my enormous experience with male sexuality both intact and altered, I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE NATURAL MEMBER AND THE SAVAGED MEMBER. The resulting knowledge has also contributed to my general despondance and concomitant sexual hyperactivity. My mother was not informed of any negative sequelae caused by infant penile foreskin amputation, nor was my father consulted."
"On September 23rd, 1974, less than 36hrs after my birth, I became the victim of Genital Mutilation. In violation of his Hippocratic Oath, Calvin C. Clark, MD cut off a healthy, functional part of my most sensitive tissue without my consent, at Vancouver Memorial Hospital. The screams haunt me every day and night. The scar reaches up into my throat and has actually deformed my lumbosacral spine. I suffered from urinary incontinence, soiling my bed nightly throughout my childhood. The emotions of Fear and Lust are so interwoven together in me that I have difficulty maintaining healthy relationships with women. I suffer from bouts of deep, even suicidal depression. My internal monologue is filled with themes of deserving punishment. At my most perfect and vulnerable, I was violated and permanently harmed by those I most trusted, ostensibly so that I would not feel different when I saw the mutilated penises of other boys. THIS MUST STOP!"
"I am gay and every time I see an uncircumcised penis or a depiction of one I feel knots in my stomach and I want to die, because it reminds me of what was done to me. I see the moist, sensitive glands that I cannot have, the enjoyment I cannot have, the feeling of the foreskin rolling over the glands. I take showers with the lights off so that I do not have to look at my own penis. Having a relationship with another person is very important to me, but I feel no motivation to have one because I cannot enjoy it in the beautiful way i should be able to. I feel depressed about this every day. I sometimes feel like they are still cutting it off of me, even though I have no memory of it. I feel as though I have been raped, and have felt suicidal (to the extent of planing out a suicide note, with my circumcision as the first reason listed). My anger and depression are out of control, causing me to break things in the house. My only hope was presented when I learned of the Foregen project. Yet I am still depressed and anguished, since it will be years before the procedure becomes available."
"I feel furious at the so-called 'doctors' and my parents for cutting off part of my penis 3 days after I was born in a procedure euphemistically called circumcision. I want financial reparations to be directed to fund Foregen's work so I can get my foreskin back."
"I'm a victim of genital mutilation. It made permanent changes to my body, sexuality and mind. I was thrust into sexual perversion as I sought out retribution against women and sought out in vain the real feeling of sexual contact. Due to the mutilation occurring on private parts, the whole issue was hidden for two decades. After finally realizing it, I had to undertake the daunting task of emotional healing. It took another ten years before I could unravel the psychological mess that was created by this sadistic, evil act on my infant body. I am now restoring what little can be restored, a process which usually fails and can take up to ten years of constant care and work. If successful, I can only regain a small portion of what was lost."
"I was circumcised as an infant and my mother was not informed of the great injustice being performed on her only son. Not only has it caused great physical trauma but psychological and emotional as well. Damages are immeasurable. I want justice for what was don't to me, and I never want another child to be sexually assaulted and butchered in their first moments of life. It has long lasting horrid affects. How can you ever trust when the first thing you know is pain and the most pleasurable part of your body is taken away?"
"Sexually assaulted by medical practicioner at 2 days after birth. The pretext for the sexual assault was fraudulent, and physiologicallly impossible. I am a medical doctor with a degree from an Eastern European nation. The sexual assault was perpetrated in the state of South Carolina. I hold not only the rapist responsible, but also the AMA."
"Damages include an assortment of disfigurements in addition to the amputation of nearly all my erogenous tissue. Full frenectomy and and the mistaken amputation of all the shaft skin on the ventral side. General pitting and gland disfigurements due to forced separation. Not a single square centimeter of tissue on my penis is with out major trauma. The psychological damages go with out saying. Ten years of remaining silent stuck in a severe continuous state of anxiety every day. I never dated and avoided all forms of human intimacy."
"In 1990 at a hospital in Crawfordsville, Indiana some stupid doctor took away at least half of the nerves responsible for my sexual satisfaction. I don't know if my mom consented or not but who cares the doctor I'm sure failed to mention that he was butchering me for life all for a couple extra bucks and maybe a claim of 'cleanliness'. BS! Intact men have no problem cleaning, but I have have an incomplete penis. Girls aren't allowed to have their genitals cut yet I was. At birth I had less Human Rights than girls. After finding out about this recently, I have never felt more depressed in my life."
"On 22 October, 1962, I was born and then 'circumcised' involuntarily. Under the 'Reason to Operate', listed on the consent form, were the words 'Live Birth'. This is not a medical condition warranting 'circumcision'. In fact, there were none then, now, nor will there ever be a reason to 'circumcise' anyone. Nothing about my natural penis was deformed, damaged, or diseased, and these are the criteria for a legitimate 'Reason to Operate'. It is illegal to perform an operation without consent from the patient (not the parent), or without the medical conditions of the aforementioned. I could go on about what it did to my body, but either way that's irrelevant."
"Irreversible physical damage to my penis. Emotional suffering related to the trauma of circumcision and the resultant loss of sexual feeling."
"I was born in Canada on 1979 with a perfect penis and it was mutilated right after I was born."
"i was assaulted and humiliated and maimed twice,once after birth and then later age 2 and a few months. i remeber the second one real well and get veryvery angry at both instances. psychological betrayal like no other, fear of being mutilated and turned into a girl. severe pain for two weeks or so. feeling weird emasculated and crushed punished and killed in the soul. no exaggeration. shy teenager afraid of male shy with females painful masturbation due to amount of useless friction needed to create orgasm and occassional bleeding due to harsh stimulation to reach orgasm. very little sensitive tissue left. psychologically feel raped and humiliated, damaged inferior and worthless as a man. only a few years of normal sexual encounters because the girlfriend was very respectful beautiful sexy and empowering. loved me as is and empathized with my trauma that never left me."
"Those fucking sons of bitches managed to rob me of my free will and free choice in violating my mind and my body and my soul."
"I was circumcised shortly birth, obviously without my consent. In fact, I protested the only way an infant knows how, by screaming and crying. As a result I have suffered a life of decreased sexual pleasure, and possibly leading to sexual maladjustment, depression, and emotional suffering."
"I suppose I wasn't supposed to give a damn I'd been ritually disfigured."
"I was circumcised when i was 4. i was non-consenting and still am, i feel like i was violated. i have had vivid nightmares about the circumcision. i was awake for at least part of it. i know i was restrained and strapped to a table. i can still remember most, maybe all the pain. when ever i have the nightmares i am not able to fully function in my life, my job and, my family ties become strained. after the nightmares i feel like killing myself."
"If I have a sick mind it's the result of psychological damage that came with the genital mutilation."
"I was wrongfully tortured as a child by my parents and doctors. Part of me was taken from me without my consent. Every time I take a piss I'm reminded of this and it's driving me insane. The people who are responsible for this should pay. I don't care if it's a class action lawsuit or not, I simply want justice."
"I just wish I had been given the choice of which body parts I got to keep and which were thrown in the dumpster."
"My circumcision has left me with 3 large scars on my penis. I have the 'halo', the scar beneath the tip and a large humiliating scar on the bottom on my penis. This scars are humiliating. I've been humiliated by women who laugh at how ugly my penis is. I an now alone and withdrawn from society."
"I feel that what my parents did to my person in having me circumcised as a newborn infant was every bit as terrible and scarring an experience if not worse than what I experienced at the age of 5 when I was sexually molested and raped by a teen-aged pedophile step brother."
"I was brutally tortured as I was circumcised without anesthetic as an Infant. I have never experienced an orgasm via vaginal intercourse as a result of Rose De Lima Hospital brutally circumcising me as an Infant. I am in a constant state of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I experience nightmares weekly in which I and or Baby Boys are circumcised. The United States has allowed/promoted the circumcision of Baby Boys and Minors, honoring all others except the Rights of the Child and his Autonomy, His right to genital integrity. I am on a mission to expose all circumcisers and their agendas. Some years ago, death by hanging was instituted. I sincerely wish to see all circumcisers of all backgrounds hung until death. I write with complete sanity of mind."
"I am angry like I have never felt before about anything in my entire life that this was done to me. I feel personally violated and sometimes the depression this has caused me is overwhelming to the point where I can't sleep or concentrate on my work. No longer can I look at or feel anything in my own penis without thinking of it as mutilated, unnatural, disfigured, incomplete etc. I did not consent to having my prepuce (foreskin) unnecessary removed and I would not have consented had it been my choice. This is going to affect me for the rest of my life and I want compensation for the damage that has been done to me (both physical and emotional)."
"We're upset that a doctor didn't disclose the truth to our parents, caused us extreme pain days after we were born, took 50% of our normal penile covering away, the most sensitive part of the penis, left us with uncomfortable erections, reduced the size of our penises, prevented the penis from functioning normally, and probably took 70% of pleasure away (and changing it) - in short, messed up our sex lives and that of our spouses."
"I always had the envy and the utmost respect for any man who is able to live their life in good health as an uncut noncircumcised man as they happen to be the lucky ones I figure."
"I grew up feeling deformed and afraid of girls, simply because I had a rather large skin bridge due to a botched circumcision. Constantly afraid to get intimate with women because they would see my deformity and laugh at me. I finally had the guts at 21 to show my father , of which freaked out and my parents immediately took me to the Dr to have it fixed. I had a recircumcision which now leaves me with a flap of skin on my penis. Dr called it a 'natural french tickler and the women will love it' I did not agree."
"Lifelong sexual dysfunction, difficulty reaching orgasm, anxiety - due to feelings of being trapped and then traumatized have developed into social phobia and depression."
"Lifelong sexual disfunction, difficulty reaching orgasm, unnaturally scarred, nerve and tissue damage, normal & beneficial body part removed without consent. Harry Medovy of Winnipeg did this to me in 1954. I hold him, the hospital he worked for and the Canadian government responsible for not protecting my human right to my whole body, and my whole natural genitals."
"Circ effed up my romantic life completely. I have never had a healthy, intimate relationship in my life. I have had plenty of dysfunctional ones. Countless. I should tour the country as the poster boy for how messed up circ is. Me and my scarred up, mutilated, dried, cracked up broomstick dick touring the country. Put me behind a cage at carnivals and county fairs. Put me on tv. I swear if the public were privy to how totalled my crusty dick and I really are, MGM would become illegal almost immediately.
If the circumcisers intent was to turn me into a dysfunctional and beaten-down monster man who runs through life causing nothing but carnage, heartbreak, and despair in both himself and in the soul of every woman he has ever dated...they have succeeded.
My cock doesn't shoot semen. It cries tears."
"I am circumcised, and wife and girlfriends all said the same thing: that during intercourse with me, they got dry and sore. They were all like, could you please hurry up? I'm getting sore. And I always thought I wasn't getting everything out of it that I should have."
"It is a horrible feeling to know that your body has been permanently scarred for as long as you can remember, and that it will never fully recover, no matter what you do. I can think of nothing that better matches the description 'cruel and unusual' than strapping a baby boy to a table and forcibly removing part of his penis and then never even telling him a word about it, leaving him to piece together the truth about what happened to him many years later."
"I have reached a point in my life where I think about the unnecessary destruction of my foreskin. I hate humanity for what they have done to me. Others have decided to have me sexually desensitized my entire life for illogical and unjustifiable reasons. My being was shattered when others decided to slice away all of the fine touch receptors that resided in my now dead foreskin. Others decided to destroy my frenulum, ridged band and a huge amount of inner and outer skins. Others decided to destroy the most important part of me. Others decided to injure me in ways unrepairable. Now I live with a brain set up to receive signals from a foreskin that will never send them as it has been atomized. My mutilation has taught me to hate, it has taught me to fear and distrust. It has taught me to disconnect and isolate. In the past I blamed many things on my rage and sorrow. I see clearly now the major root of my misanthropy."
"The emotional trauma that I have experienced due to this barbaric act of sexual abuse has affected me my whole life and will continue to affect me for the rest of my life. It goes against my personal beliefs and is a grossly unnatural act of violence."
"Female genital cutting on minors is illegal in the USA, but male genital cutting on minors is perfectly legal. Why aren't all infants afforded the same protection under the law against unnecessary forced genital cutting?"
"Dr. Robert Landgraff circumcised me for no reason in Niles, Michigan in 1962. I was healthy and normal and he amputated a valuable body part. Sex feels dull as a result. I hold culpable Dr. Landgraf and any doctor who was in a position to formulate a sane policy statement that should have discouraged warrantless surgery on unconsenting minors, and also the insurance company who paid for a destructive amputation."
"A couple of months ago I learned of a situation where a young gal was going out with two guys. One of them was handsome, charming, and a student at an Ivy League college. The other was average looks, not much personality, and working a blue collar job. The college kid was circumcised and the other kid wasn't. Guess which boy she chose? She chose the uncircumcised kid, because she said she was able to have much better sex with him."
"I wish every day that I wasn't circumcised. I would give up everything I have to have a whole and complete body."
"I was circumcised at around 10 years old. Following up to the final surgery, the pediatrician forced my foreskin back on two occasions, which caused painful adhesions both times. [...] I have been too embarrassed to take legal action."
"I was a beautiful baby boy and my own mother couldn't accept all of me. Minutes after birth I had to be butchered."
"Upon being born in 1985, I was subjected to routine penile reduction surgery preformed by the pediatrician Terence Neff, M.D. of Coeur d'Alene, Idaho without valid 'informed consent' or 'medical necessity'. Should I also mention that I suffer from a hirsute 'shaft' (esp. when my member is erect), wound unevenness, and penoscrotal 'webbing'--which itself requires urological surgery to correct--etc.? For it is true: I do."
"I feel betrayed and angered by what has been done to me. Worst of all, when I try to confront my parents about it, they act as though they are offended by me speaking up for myself."
"I had my penis mutilated in this very same manner and my whole life I have been plagued with sexual problems stemming from this most heinous form of ABUSE. No, I don’t “remember” the vile act but I am well aware of it’s life long scarring of my entire sexual history and the mental and emotional anguish that has ruined me as a person. I don’t give a rats ass about YOUR personal beliefs but my personal belief is that any one who does this to helpless babies no matter the reason deserve nothing less than death. I speak as a VICTIM, I was wronged in the most humiliating fashion imaginable. THERE IS NO JUSTIFICATION FOR WHAT WAS DONE TO THIS BABY OR MYSELF!!! If you are considering this for your children then do all involved a favor and kill your self now and save the child from suffering my fate."
"It freaks me the FUCK out --to the deepest core of my soul-- that the most exquisitely elegant, sensitive, functional parts of my PENIS (!!!) were --for NO GOOD REASON-- violently, savagely ripped and sliced off me, thereby crippling and impairing my sexual function for LIFE."
"Like so many other mutilated men who have expressed their anger over their mutilation, I too was having fantasies about killing the doctor who mutilated me."
"I find it inexcusable that I cannot successfully sue the hospital or doctor that circumcised me against my will. All info I find says they have to botch the surgery for you to win your case. In my opinion, that is like saying you can only convict a rapist if you get pregnant."
"To be honest I feel the doctor committed act of rape against my person in the worst way imaginable, a form of psychological rape that went entirely beyond the physical act."
"Having been the subject of the dubious distinction of being fully aware of the contrast between cut/uncut, the dire operation having taken place a couple of years ago, I can only say I much preferred my uncut status. The sensitivity was/is light-years in difference. I'd never subject any son of mine to unnecessary mutilation."
Still to this day the establishment continues to lie, that parents may be induced to hand over their baby sons to be sexually mutilated on medical premises.
"I have a tremendous amount of regret and even more anger from being deceived." (A mother.)
When will it end? When will the United States of America move beyond this obscene blemish in its short history? How many more must be violated? How many more relationships handicapped by the male's heavy psychological burden and by his sensual-sexual inadequacy?
"The standard American circumcision destroys as much as possible without rendering its victim so sexually dysfunctional that he cannot even masturbate. Instead of making masturbation very difficult or impossible, the standard American circumcision leaves just enough foreskin so that masturbation is possible, but there is still so much foreskin missing that sexual pleasure is greatly reduced and sexual intercourse with women is a lousy experience. Thus, the American empire has evolved an optimal strategy for its program of sexual mutilation because the primary purpose of America’s sexual-mutilation program is to attack the family."
In memory of all the beautiful children throughout history who have died at the hands of sexual mutilators; and in memory of those who almost died, those who wanted to die, and those who wished they had died; and in memory of those who never knew that a sexual mutilator killed a beautiful, wondrous, irreplaceable part of them.
Mikey, I never forgot you.
...I've wondered what it's like to have a foreskin all my life.
...Adrenalin shoots through me when I hear the word "circumcised." I freeze.
...I couldn't even make myself say "circumcised" until I was in my twenties.
...I hate that word. The sound "cir..." makes me shudder.
...When I read out loud I say the word "situation" so I don't have to say "circumstance."
...I used to think there were two kinds of boys: circumcised boys like me and real boys.
...The fact that other boys were circumcised too never made me feel any better.
...When I was a child I prayed I would get my foreskin back in heaven.
...I wanted to be a girl when I was a child because I knew that girls weren't circumcised.
...I always wondered why women seemed so much more naturally sensitive until it finally dawned on me that I was born equally sensitive, but they cut it off.
...I think of myself and other circumcised men as amputees.
...I have always felt that I was cut off of my foreskin, not vice versa.
...I think of myself as existing in two parts: my missing foreskin and the rest of me.
...I am always thinking: where is my foreskin?
...I feel like half a man.
...I feel as if part of me had been murdered.
...If the only uncircumcised guy in the locker room feels different, imagine how the only circumcised guy feels.
...I went to a nude beach in Yugoslavia and felt like a freak.
...I asked a friend if he felt "different" when he was the only uncircumcised man in the shower and he said, "Yes -- gloriously different."
...Perhaps it's better not to know that one has missed a lifetime of sexual pleasure.
...I'm Jewish and I hate being circumcised.
...I would rather have been BRANDED ON MY BUTTOCKS WITH THE STAR OF DAVID or HAD A FINGER CUT OFF than to have had my penis butchered. When I realized that Judaism cut me off from part of myself, I cut myself off from Judaism.
...I found circumcision MUCH worse than merely being gang raped as a 6 year old.
...Anti-Semitism comes easily to a circumcised gentile.
...I'd give everything I own if I could wear a T-shirt with "UNCUT" printed on it and it could be true.
...I envy my dog.
...The woman I was most in love with had a thing for uncut.
...What possible advantage could there be to removing from the penis its only movable part?
...It hurt. It bled. It left an ugly scar.
...The head of my penis is just dead.
...I now have to masturbate using a catcher's mitt and 00-grade steel wool.
...What circumcision did to my body is bad enough, but what it did to my mind is worse.
...My first sado/masochistic experience was when I was a baby, when I was circumcised. [Computer bulletin board]
...My mother told me she could hear my screams from the other end of the hall.
...My greatest fear to this day is having a knife pulled on me.
...I have nightmares about being circumcised by force.
...I was circumcised by force when I was nine and it has ruined my entire life.
...I was circumcised when I was five -- seventy years ago. I felt rage then and I still feel rage now.
...I was circumcised when I was a year old. I remember my foreskin. I want my foreskin back.
...I never got used to being circumcised. I just learned to endure it.
...I think I could have accepted a deformity that was an accident of nature, but I can't accept that someone did that to me.
...I have never been able to accept the fact that someone cut part of my penis off when I was a baby. The sheer monstrousness of it haunts every waking moment of my life. Sometimes I think I'm beginning to make some sort of adjustment to it, but then I see an unmutilated man in a magazine or shower and I become overwhelmed by uncontrollable feelings of outrage and disbelief that I was made the victim for life of something so sick. Sometimes I feel I'm at the edge of madness and just can't handle it.
...The title of a story by Harlan Ellison conveys my feelings exactly about having been circumcised when I was born: "I HAVE NO MOUTH AND I MUST SCREAM."
...It cast a pall over my entire life.
...It's a life sentence at birth.
...Hardest to take was my wife leaving me for a man who was intact.
...I don't have sex with anyone because I wouldn't want to have sex with anyone who would have sex with someone who was circumcised.
...I never let women see my penis because I think it's ugly.
...I have a good sexual relationship with my wife but I'm also turned on by foreskins and have had several uncircumcised lovers. Would I still have been gay if I hadn't been circumcised? I'll never know.
...The only reason I'm gay is that I was circumcised when I was a baby. I feel deprived. It's only with an uncircumcised man that I can have a foreskin. [This man later died of AIDS.]
...My parents could accept that my uncircumcised younger brother and I were both gay, but they couldn't accept that we were lovers.
...How can I contact Foreskin Sharers of America? To find a man whose foreskin I could play with as freely as I would my own if I had one, is my endless quest.
...I masturbate two or three times a day, always to the same fantasy: the image of my foreskin as it would look and feel now, had it not been cut off when I was born.
...I feel that my father betrayed me by letting my mother have me circumcised against his wishes, and I've always sensed that deep down he rejected me because he saw me as damaged.
...I tried several times to ask my mother about what had been done to me; but when I opened my mouth to speak, the words stuck in my throat and no sound came out.
...I think about my mother with her ears docked, like a Doberman's, face down in her coffin, facing hell.
...When I think about what my parents let happen to me, I want to take a razor and slit their throats.
...Damn my parents and their superstitious religious rituals!
...I've never told my parents how I feel.
...I have revenge fantasies about circumcision.
...If I knew who cut my foreskin off, I'd cut off his entire dick.
...I want to kill the doctor who circumcised me.
...My feelings about the doctor who circumcised me are too violent to describe.
...I was just a baby -- I couldn't stop them.
...Butchers!
..."Butchered at Birth" [Printed on T-shirt on teenage boy on MTV, early March 1993]
...Circumcision is life long torture.
...Saying "uncircumcised" is like saying "unamputated" or "unmutilated" or maybe "unstabbed-through-the-heart-and-gored-to-death."
...There's something very, very wrong and very frightening about a society that systematically tortures and mutilates babies.
...Circumcision should be mandatory.
...Why would anyone cut off part of a baby's penis? Why would anyone let himself or anyone else do it?
...I wish I could circumcise every uncircumcised man in the world, so they'd all be like me. I don't have a foreskin and no one else should have one either.
...The worst thing about circumcision is that it produces circumcisers.
...Fear, pain, crippling, disfigurement, and humiliation are the classic ways to break the human spirit. Circumcision includes them all.
...i spent the last 3 weeks chatting up a girl, finally get her naked and she says she doesnt wanna have sex with me because i dont have a foreskin and she thinks a circumcised penis looks weird and wont touch it because she thinks its broken.
"I was circumcised at Brook General Hospital, Ft.Sam Houston, Texas, 5 days after my birth 15 March, 1945 and meatotomized at 7 years due to iatrogenic complication. The double whammy resulting from the foregoing turned me into an INSATIABLE homosexual; I have had carnal contact with 6 females and over 8,000 males spanning almost 50 years of sexual activity. The desensitization from the above mentioned procedures and the psychological trauma resultant therefrom impelled me to find sexual release involving second and tertiary erotic areas of my body e.g. the anus inter alia to provide the stimulus compensation for the loss of the primary sensation ablated in the aforementioned infant circumcision. This has also created the need for extreme forms of sexual release such as orgies and sex in risky environments in which danger is an enhancement providing the extra boost needed to achieve ejaculation; none of the foregoing activities would have been necessary had I been allowed to keep the neural triggers in the foreskin and frenulum. My frenulum appears to have been scraped or excised of about two thirds or three quarters of its original size. Due to my enormous experience with male sexuality both intact and altered, I KNOW THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE NATURAL MEMBER AND THE SAVAGED MEMBER. The resulting knowledge has also contributed to my general despondance and concomitant sexual hyperactivity. My mother was not informed of any negative sequelae caused by infant penile foreskin amputation, nor was my father consulted."
"On September 23rd, 1974, less than 36hrs after my birth, I became the victim of Genital Mutilation. In violation of his Hippocratic Oath, Calvin C. Clark, MD cut off a healthy, functional part of my most sensitive tissue without my consent, at Vancouver Memorial Hospital. The screams haunt me every day and night. The scar reaches up into my throat and has actually deformed my lumbosacral spine. I suffered from urinary incontinence, soiling my bed nightly throughout my childhood. The emotions of Fear and Lust are so interwoven together in me that I have difficulty maintaining healthy relationships with women. I suffer from bouts of deep, even suicidal depression. My internal monologue is filled with themes of deserving punishment. At my most perfect and vulnerable, I was violated and permanently harmed by those I most trusted, ostensibly so that I would not feel different when I saw the mutilated penises of other boys. THIS MUST STOP!"
"I am gay and every time I see an uncircumcised penis or a depiction of one I feel knots in my stomach and I want to die, because it reminds me of what was done to me. I see the moist, sensitive glands that I cannot have, the enjoyment I cannot have, the feeling of the foreskin rolling over the glands. I take showers with the lights off so that I do not have to look at my own penis. Having a relationship with another person is very important to me, but I feel no motivation to have one because I cannot enjoy it in the beautiful way i should be able to. I feel depressed about this every day. I sometimes feel like they are still cutting it off of me, even though I have no memory of it. I feel as though I have been raped, and have felt suicidal (to the extent of planing out a suicide note, with my circumcision as the first reason listed). My anger and depression are out of control, causing me to break things in the house. My only hope was presented when I learned of the Foregen project. Yet I am still depressed and anguished, since it will be years before the procedure becomes available."
"I feel furious at the so-called 'doctors' and my parents for cutting off part of my penis 3 days after I was born in a procedure euphemistically called circumcision. I want financial reparations to be directed to fund Foregen's work so I can get my foreskin back."
"I'm a victim of genital mutilation. It made permanent changes to my body, sexuality and mind. I was thrust into sexual perversion as I sought out retribution against women and sought out in vain the real feeling of sexual contact. Due to the mutilation occurring on private parts, the whole issue was hidden for two decades. After finally realizing it, I had to undertake the daunting task of emotional healing. It took another ten years before I could unravel the psychological mess that was created by this sadistic, evil act on my infant body. I am now restoring what little can be restored, a process which usually fails and can take up to ten years of constant care and work. If successful, I can only regain a small portion of what was lost."
"I was circumcised as an infant and my mother was not informed of the great injustice being performed on her only son. Not only has it caused great physical trauma but psychological and emotional as well. Damages are immeasurable. I want justice for what was don't to me, and I never want another child to be sexually assaulted and butchered in their first moments of life. It has long lasting horrid affects. How can you ever trust when the first thing you know is pain and the most pleasurable part of your body is taken away?"
"Sexually assaulted by medical practicioner at 2 days after birth. The pretext for the sexual assault was fraudulent, and physiologicallly impossible. I am a medical doctor with a degree from an Eastern European nation. The sexual assault was perpetrated in the state of South Carolina. I hold not only the rapist responsible, but also the AMA."
"Damages include an assortment of disfigurements in addition to the amputation of nearly all my erogenous tissue. Full frenectomy and and the mistaken amputation of all the shaft skin on the ventral side. General pitting and gland disfigurements due to forced separation. Not a single square centimeter of tissue on my penis is with out major trauma. The psychological damages go with out saying. Ten years of remaining silent stuck in a severe continuous state of anxiety every day. I never dated and avoided all forms of human intimacy."
"In 1990 at a hospital in Crawfordsville, Indiana some stupid doctor took away at least half of the nerves responsible for my sexual satisfaction. I don't know if my mom consented or not but who cares the doctor I'm sure failed to mention that he was butchering me for life all for a couple extra bucks and maybe a claim of 'cleanliness'. BS! Intact men have no problem cleaning, but I have have an incomplete penis. Girls aren't allowed to have their genitals cut yet I was. At birth I had less Human Rights than girls. After finding out about this recently, I have never felt more depressed in my life."
"On 22 October, 1962, I was born and then 'circumcised' involuntarily. Under the 'Reason to Operate', listed on the consent form, were the words 'Live Birth'. This is not a medical condition warranting 'circumcision'. In fact, there were none then, now, nor will there ever be a reason to 'circumcise' anyone. Nothing about my natural penis was deformed, damaged, or diseased, and these are the criteria for a legitimate 'Reason to Operate'. It is illegal to perform an operation without consent from the patient (not the parent), or without the medical conditions of the aforementioned. I could go on about what it did to my body, but either way that's irrelevant."
"Irreversible physical damage to my penis. Emotional suffering related to the trauma of circumcision and the resultant loss of sexual feeling."
"I was born in Canada on 1979 with a perfect penis and it was mutilated right after I was born."
"i was assaulted and humiliated and maimed twice,once after birth and then later age 2 and a few months. i remeber the second one real well and get veryvery angry at both instances. psychological betrayal like no other, fear of being mutilated and turned into a girl. severe pain for two weeks or so. feeling weird emasculated and crushed punished and killed in the soul. no exaggeration. shy teenager afraid of male shy with females painful masturbation due to amount of useless friction needed to create orgasm and occassional bleeding due to harsh stimulation to reach orgasm. very little sensitive tissue left. psychologically feel raped and humiliated, damaged inferior and worthless as a man. only a few years of normal sexual encounters because the girlfriend was very respectful beautiful sexy and empowering. loved me as is and empathized with my trauma that never left me."
"Those fucking sons of bitches managed to rob me of my free will and free choice in violating my mind and my body and my soul."
"I was circumcised shortly birth, obviously without my consent. In fact, I protested the only way an infant knows how, by screaming and crying. As a result I have suffered a life of decreased sexual pleasure, and possibly leading to sexual maladjustment, depression, and emotional suffering."
"I suppose I wasn't supposed to give a damn I'd been ritually disfigured."
"I was circumcised when i was 4. i was non-consenting and still am, i feel like i was violated. i have had vivid nightmares about the circumcision. i was awake for at least part of it. i know i was restrained and strapped to a table. i can still remember most, maybe all the pain. when ever i have the nightmares i am not able to fully function in my life, my job and, my family ties become strained. after the nightmares i feel like killing myself."
"If I have a sick mind it's the result of psychological damage that came with the genital mutilation."
"I was wrongfully tortured as a child by my parents and doctors. Part of me was taken from me without my consent. Every time I take a piss I'm reminded of this and it's driving me insane. The people who are responsible for this should pay. I don't care if it's a class action lawsuit or not, I simply want justice."
"I just wish I had been given the choice of which body parts I got to keep and which were thrown in the dumpster."
"My circumcision has left me with 3 large scars on my penis. I have the 'halo', the scar beneath the tip and a large humiliating scar on the bottom on my penis. This scars are humiliating. I've been humiliated by women who laugh at how ugly my penis is. I an now alone and withdrawn from society."
"I feel that what my parents did to my person in having me circumcised as a newborn infant was every bit as terrible and scarring an experience if not worse than what I experienced at the age of 5 when I was sexually molested and raped by a teen-aged pedophile step brother."
"I was brutally tortured as I was circumcised without anesthetic as an Infant. I have never experienced an orgasm via vaginal intercourse as a result of Rose De Lima Hospital brutally circumcising me as an Infant. I am in a constant state of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. I experience nightmares weekly in which I and or Baby Boys are circumcised. The United States has allowed/promoted the circumcision of Baby Boys and Minors, honoring all others except the Rights of the Child and his Autonomy, His right to genital integrity. I am on a mission to expose all circumcisers and their agendas. Some years ago, death by hanging was instituted. I sincerely wish to see all circumcisers of all backgrounds hung until death. I write with complete sanity of mind."
"I am angry like I have never felt before about anything in my entire life that this was done to me. I feel personally violated and sometimes the depression this has caused me is overwhelming to the point where I can't sleep or concentrate on my work. No longer can I look at or feel anything in my own penis without thinking of it as mutilated, unnatural, disfigured, incomplete etc. I did not consent to having my prepuce (foreskin) unnecessary removed and I would not have consented had it been my choice. This is going to affect me for the rest of my life and I want compensation for the damage that has been done to me (both physical and emotional)."
"We're upset that a doctor didn't disclose the truth to our parents, caused us extreme pain days after we were born, took 50% of our normal penile covering away, the most sensitive part of the penis, left us with uncomfortable erections, reduced the size of our penises, prevented the penis from functioning normally, and probably took 70% of pleasure away (and changing it) - in short, messed up our sex lives and that of our spouses."
"I always had the envy and the utmost respect for any man who is able to live their life in good health as an uncut noncircumcised man as they happen to be the lucky ones I figure."
"I grew up feeling deformed and afraid of girls, simply because I had a rather large skin bridge due to a botched circumcision. Constantly afraid to get intimate with women because they would see my deformity and laugh at me. I finally had the guts at 21 to show my father , of which freaked out and my parents immediately took me to the Dr to have it fixed. I had a recircumcision which now leaves me with a flap of skin on my penis. Dr called it a 'natural french tickler and the women will love it' I did not agree."
"Lifelong sexual dysfunction, difficulty reaching orgasm, anxiety - due to feelings of being trapped and then traumatized have developed into social phobia and depression."
"Lifelong sexual disfunction, difficulty reaching orgasm, unnaturally scarred, nerve and tissue damage, normal & beneficial body part removed without consent. Harry Medovy of Winnipeg did this to me in 1954. I hold him, the hospital he worked for and the Canadian government responsible for not protecting my human right to my whole body, and my whole natural genitals."
"Circ effed up my romantic life completely. I have never had a healthy, intimate relationship in my life. I have had plenty of dysfunctional ones. Countless. I should tour the country as the poster boy for how messed up circ is. Me and my scarred up, mutilated, dried, cracked up broomstick dick touring the country. Put me behind a cage at carnivals and county fairs. Put me on tv. I swear if the public were privy to how totalled my crusty dick and I really are, MGM would become illegal almost immediately.
If the circumcisers intent was to turn me into a dysfunctional and beaten-down monster man who runs through life causing nothing but carnage, heartbreak, and despair in both himself and in the soul of every woman he has ever dated...they have succeeded.
My cock doesn't shoot semen. It cries tears."
"I am circumcised, and wife and girlfriends all said the same thing: that during intercourse with me, they got dry and sore. They were all like, could you please hurry up? I'm getting sore. And I always thought I wasn't getting everything out of it that I should have."
"It is a horrible feeling to know that your body has been permanently scarred for as long as you can remember, and that it will never fully recover, no matter what you do. I can think of nothing that better matches the description 'cruel and unusual' than strapping a baby boy to a table and forcibly removing part of his penis and then never even telling him a word about it, leaving him to piece together the truth about what happened to him many years later."
"I have reached a point in my life where I think about the unnecessary destruction of my foreskin. I hate humanity for what they have done to me. Others have decided to have me sexually desensitized my entire life for illogical and unjustifiable reasons. My being was shattered when others decided to slice away all of the fine touch receptors that resided in my now dead foreskin. Others decided to destroy my frenulum, ridged band and a huge amount of inner and outer skins. Others decided to destroy the most important part of me. Others decided to injure me in ways unrepairable. Now I live with a brain set up to receive signals from a foreskin that will never send them as it has been atomized. My mutilation has taught me to hate, it has taught me to fear and distrust. It has taught me to disconnect and isolate. In the past I blamed many things on my rage and sorrow. I see clearly now the major root of my misanthropy."
"The emotional trauma that I have experienced due to this barbaric act of sexual abuse has affected me my whole life and will continue to affect me for the rest of my life. It goes against my personal beliefs and is a grossly unnatural act of violence."
"Female genital cutting on minors is illegal in the USA, but male genital cutting on minors is perfectly legal. Why aren't all infants afforded the same protection under the law against unnecessary forced genital cutting?"
"Dr. Robert Landgraff circumcised me for no reason in Niles, Michigan in 1962. I was healthy and normal and he amputated a valuable body part. Sex feels dull as a result. I hold culpable Dr. Landgraf and any doctor who was in a position to formulate a sane policy statement that should have discouraged warrantless surgery on unconsenting minors, and also the insurance company who paid for a destructive amputation."
"A couple of months ago I learned of a situation where a young gal was going out with two guys. One of them was handsome, charming, and a student at an Ivy League college. The other was average looks, not much personality, and working a blue collar job. The college kid was circumcised and the other kid wasn't. Guess which boy she chose? She chose the uncircumcised kid, because she said she was able to have much better sex with him."
"I wish every day that I wasn't circumcised. I would give up everything I have to have a whole and complete body."
"I was circumcised at around 10 years old. Following up to the final surgery, the pediatrician forced my foreskin back on two occasions, which caused painful adhesions both times. [...] I have been too embarrassed to take legal action."
"I was a beautiful baby boy and my own mother couldn't accept all of me. Minutes after birth I had to be butchered."
"Upon being born in 1985, I was subjected to routine penile reduction surgery preformed by the pediatrician Terence Neff, M.D. of Coeur d'Alene, Idaho without valid 'informed consent' or 'medical necessity'. Should I also mention that I suffer from a hirsute 'shaft' (esp. when my member is erect), wound unevenness, and penoscrotal 'webbing'--which itself requires urological surgery to correct--etc.? For it is true: I do."
"I feel betrayed and angered by what has been done to me. Worst of all, when I try to confront my parents about it, they act as though they are offended by me speaking up for myself."
"I had my penis mutilated in this very same manner and my whole life I have been plagued with sexual problems stemming from this most heinous form of ABUSE. No, I don’t “remember” the vile act but I am well aware of it’s life long scarring of my entire sexual history and the mental and emotional anguish that has ruined me as a person. I don’t give a rats ass about YOUR personal beliefs but my personal belief is that any one who does this to helpless babies no matter the reason deserve nothing less than death. I speak as a VICTIM, I was wronged in the most humiliating fashion imaginable. THERE IS NO JUSTIFICATION FOR WHAT WAS DONE TO THIS BABY OR MYSELF!!! If you are considering this for your children then do all involved a favor and kill your self now and save the child from suffering my fate."
"It freaks me the FUCK out --to the deepest core of my soul-- that the most exquisitely elegant, sensitive, functional parts of my PENIS (!!!) were --for NO GOOD REASON-- violently, savagely ripped and sliced off me, thereby crippling and impairing my sexual function for LIFE."
"Like so many other mutilated men who have expressed their anger over their mutilation, I too was having fantasies about killing the doctor who mutilated me."
"I find it inexcusable that I cannot successfully sue the hospital or doctor that circumcised me against my will. All info I find says they have to botch the surgery for you to win your case. In my opinion, that is like saying you can only convict a rapist if you get pregnant."
"To be honest I feel the doctor committed act of rape against my person in the worst way imaginable, a form of psychological rape that went entirely beyond the physical act."
"Having been the subject of the dubious distinction of being fully aware of the contrast between cut/uncut, the dire operation having taken place a couple of years ago, I can only say I much preferred my uncut status. The sensitivity was/is light-years in difference. I'd never subject any son of mine to unnecessary mutilation."
Still to this day the establishment continues to lie, that parents may be induced to hand over their baby sons to be sexually mutilated on medical premises.
"I have a tremendous amount of regret and even more anger from being deceived." (A mother.)
When will it end? When will the United States of America move beyond this obscene blemish in its short history? How many more must be violated? How many more relationships handicapped by the male's heavy psychological burden and by his sensual-sexual inadequacy?
"The standard American circumcision destroys as much as possible without rendering its victim so sexually dysfunctional that he cannot even masturbate. Instead of making masturbation very difficult or impossible, the standard American circumcision leaves just enough foreskin so that masturbation is possible, but there is still so much foreskin missing that sexual pleasure is greatly reduced and sexual intercourse with women is a lousy experience. Thus, the American empire has evolved an optimal strategy for its program of sexual mutilation because the primary purpose of America’s sexual-mutilation program is to attack the family."
In memory of all the beautiful children throughout history who have died at the hands of sexual mutilators; and in memory of those who almost died, those who wanted to die, and those who wished they had died; and in memory of those who never knew that a sexual mutilator killed a beautiful, wondrous, irreplaceable part of them.
Mikey, I never forgot you.