Dasher
December 29th, 2010, 20:22
I don't know about you, but I find it hard to believe that a kid that grew up intact in the U.S. had such a fear of anyone seeing his uncircumcised penis that he would retract his foreskin years before it should have been retracted, and try to pass for circumcised. Consider this, and I apologize that it is so long:
"In grades 1 and 2, I was made fun of by the older boys at the school urinal, which was a zero privacy zone. Not until 4th grade did I discover that I could look circumcised by retracting my foreskin. All whispering about my peculiar penis instantly ceased. In 6th and 7th grades, I was confident enough of my ability to conceal my foreskin that I would let other boys watch me urinate while erect. In junior high, the only classmate whom I knew to be intact once said to me in a voice tinged with malice, "I know yours is covered with skin." I was deeply afraid that he would tell the other boys. At the time, I had no idea he and I were normal.
"I dreaded hernia checks in scout camp, fearing that an adult would comment on my foreskin and the other boys would ridicule me. Some boys would boast in my presence of mutual masturbation, exhibitionist, and other nighttime sex play. I was never invited to participate, a fact which led to deeply mixed feelings. On one hand, I was disappointed that the other boys did not like or trust me enough to ask me to join in. On the other, homosexual acts did not interest me at all, my sexual curiosity being wholly for the other sex. Most of all, I was terrified of how other boys would react to my foreskin. The prospect of having to shower in the presence of other boys in summer camp and in gym filled me with dread. On the first dozen-odd days I had gym, I kept my foreskin retracted using a rubber band. It was hard to find the Goldilocks rubber band--tight enough to do the job, yet not so tight as to result in discomfort. I soon discovered that I could very quickly pull my foreskin back before slipping out of my underwear, and that it would stay back while I showered. I noted that other intact boys (who were very rare) did not betray any evident embarrassment. But I simply could not bring myself to imitate their example.
"Other incidents did not make me paranoid but marked my impressionable spirit in other ways: two or three times a year, I played with the son of an American friend of my mother’s. He was kind and not oversexed. When we would pee in the woods, he would begin with his foreskin fully extended, then glance at my retracted foreskin (from age 9 to 45, I always peed with my foreskin fully retracted), assume I was cut, blush, and try to pull his foreskin back, without complete success. We never talked about it.
"I once went on a 10 day scout camping trip in Europe. Because intact prepubescent boys typically do not retract their foreskins when urinating (I was an exception) and because the foreskin has a marked effect on the urine stream, one does not need to see the penis to determine that it is uncut. One of the boys had been circumcised at age 9 because of a chronic rash. The other boys were fascinated about this fact and he talked about it happily and freely. No one made fun of him. Thus I learned that circumcision after infancy was not especially painful, but that the recovery required about 10 days of down time. No boy knew the word "circumcision," or the operation's religious significance, until I enlightened them (my own knowledge was quite new at the time). A boy interjected “Cutting it off makes no sense; I wash myself carefully down there every time I take a bath.” Much of their childish phallic humor, by the way, from the way an intact penis resembles a banana. The boys were curious about how I looked; while I evaded their questions, my habit of peeing with my foreskin retracted convinced them that I was circumcised. I did not disabuse them and they made no fun me of me whatsoever. I was so uptight I could not admit to having a foreskin even to friendly intact boys."
Maybe this is an extreme case, but it is still very unsettling. I didn't know a single intact boy who retracted his foreskin all the way unless during masturbation or washing it. I had a tight foreskin, so retracting it was not an option for me. I noticed that some boys who were 15 or 16 years old sometimes pulled the skin back a little when they peed, but never all the way.
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"In grades 1 and 2, I was made fun of by the older boys at the school urinal, which was a zero privacy zone. Not until 4th grade did I discover that I could look circumcised by retracting my foreskin. All whispering about my peculiar penis instantly ceased. In 6th and 7th grades, I was confident enough of my ability to conceal my foreskin that I would let other boys watch me urinate while erect. In junior high, the only classmate whom I knew to be intact once said to me in a voice tinged with malice, "I know yours is covered with skin." I was deeply afraid that he would tell the other boys. At the time, I had no idea he and I were normal.
"I dreaded hernia checks in scout camp, fearing that an adult would comment on my foreskin and the other boys would ridicule me. Some boys would boast in my presence of mutual masturbation, exhibitionist, and other nighttime sex play. I was never invited to participate, a fact which led to deeply mixed feelings. On one hand, I was disappointed that the other boys did not like or trust me enough to ask me to join in. On the other, homosexual acts did not interest me at all, my sexual curiosity being wholly for the other sex. Most of all, I was terrified of how other boys would react to my foreskin. The prospect of having to shower in the presence of other boys in summer camp and in gym filled me with dread. On the first dozen-odd days I had gym, I kept my foreskin retracted using a rubber band. It was hard to find the Goldilocks rubber band--tight enough to do the job, yet not so tight as to result in discomfort. I soon discovered that I could very quickly pull my foreskin back before slipping out of my underwear, and that it would stay back while I showered. I noted that other intact boys (who were very rare) did not betray any evident embarrassment. But I simply could not bring myself to imitate their example.
"Other incidents did not make me paranoid but marked my impressionable spirit in other ways: two or three times a year, I played with the son of an American friend of my mother’s. He was kind and not oversexed. When we would pee in the woods, he would begin with his foreskin fully extended, then glance at my retracted foreskin (from age 9 to 45, I always peed with my foreskin fully retracted), assume I was cut, blush, and try to pull his foreskin back, without complete success. We never talked about it.
"I once went on a 10 day scout camping trip in Europe. Because intact prepubescent boys typically do not retract their foreskins when urinating (I was an exception) and because the foreskin has a marked effect on the urine stream, one does not need to see the penis to determine that it is uncut. One of the boys had been circumcised at age 9 because of a chronic rash. The other boys were fascinated about this fact and he talked about it happily and freely. No one made fun of him. Thus I learned that circumcision after infancy was not especially painful, but that the recovery required about 10 days of down time. No boy knew the word "circumcision," or the operation's religious significance, until I enlightened them (my own knowledge was quite new at the time). A boy interjected “Cutting it off makes no sense; I wash myself carefully down there every time I take a bath.” Much of their childish phallic humor, by the way, from the way an intact penis resembles a banana. The boys were curious about how I looked; while I evaded their questions, my habit of peeing with my foreskin retracted convinced them that I was circumcised. I did not disabuse them and they made no fun me of me whatsoever. I was so uptight I could not admit to having a foreskin even to friendly intact boys."
Maybe this is an extreme case, but it is still very unsettling. I didn't know a single intact boy who retracted his foreskin all the way unless during masturbation or washing it. I had a tight foreskin, so retracting it was not an option for me. I noticed that some boys who were 15 or 16 years old sometimes pulled the skin back a little when they peed, but never all the way.
{mod: If this is not your writing, please credit the source. Sounds like c i r c l i s t to me. }