15 Year Old Restorer's Blog

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Came across this blog on Google. This kid, only 15 years old, writes posts talking about his experience with restoring.

http://adamisrestoring.blogspot.com/

Personally, my lack of foreskin never became an issue until the age of 23, when I dated a girl from El Salvador who had never been with a circumcised man before. To her it was weird that I was lacking foreskin, which was something I had never really put much thought to being raised here in America. It was at this point that I began to do research on the topic, which eventually led to where I am now, restoring.

I can't imagine how traumatic it would be to go through the experience of learning what you are missing out on at such a young age, when you are still becoming comfortable with your own body.

[SaturdayNights]

I haven't read the blog, but I'm gonna respond to something you said at the end of your post.

I was 13 when I learned about circumcision, foreskin-restoration, etc... And it was tough (and still is). I was entering puberty, thinking about sex, and all those things, and learning about what circumcision did to me gave me some major breakdowns. Sometimes, I just couldn't stop crying. It was pretty bad.

I'm 14 now, and I'm feeling better about the whole thing... I still need to get a tugger though. : (
Still got my ugly old cut penis.

[Nate67]

Saturday nights,
14 years old? First off, your penis is not old!

Your youth can work to your advantage in restoration, since you have not finished growing yet, many believe that you are at an advantage to those of us whom stopped growing long ago.

I know of Adam (the 15 YO blogger) from Gary's Restore-list. I don't really know Adam, but I am familiar with his writings and some of his thoughts. Adam recently "retired" from posting, and, from intactivism, because well, it seems it all became a bit overwhelming. This is totally understandable.

Many emotional issues are amplified when you are a teenager. As you grow you will develop a different point of view of things with more life experiences. This is not to suggest that your, or any of ours, circumcisions are not a serious issue, a major violation of our rights to our own bodily integrity. Circumcision is a serious issue that needs to be addressed by society, and exposed as the harmful abuse of boys and their future sexuality, that it is.

As humans, we all respond to trauma and victimization, differently. I can barely imagine how I would have responded to the truth of the harm of circ, when I was a teenager, not well, I am sure.

You are in control of your body now. Try to maintain a clear perspective on your own circumcision and your restoration. You will have ups and downs, and at times the downs will feel like the lowest low. Keep in mind that this time and this place you are in, will pass. This time/space is not forever, and your relationship with your body will improve.

Lastly, to be honest, remember, that there is still a lot about sexual response, and the adaptability of the mind, that none of us quite understand. Yes, we have lost a certain quantity of sensory tissue, that is certain. Our rights were violated, that is clear. What none of us know is how exactly this impacts our ability to perceive sexual stimulus, or how dynamic and adaptable that perception might be. The very fact that many men perceive improvement from restoration, indicates that the reduction in sensitivity perception is not totally unadaptable. Could be physical, or psychological or more likely, a combination of both.

I have to be careful how I say this, as I am not trying to excuse circumcision by implying that it can simply be undone and all is fine. That is not what I mean. I mean to say, try not to get to depressed over what is lost and gone forever. What happened in the past cannot be undone, however you can recover from the damage, to some degree, with dedication to restoration, and with a positive attitude. Do not dismiss the power of the mind to heal the body. Restore your foreskin and ease your mind.

Take care, be well and seek truth!

-Nate

[SaturdayNights]

Haha, I know, I know, it's still ugly though. Haha.

How exactly can it help me, will it grow faster?
And do you think (because I'm still growing, like you said) I'll have to grow a lot of slack to keep up with the actual penile growth?

And thanks, for all the stuff you wrote. And I agree, it will pass. I don't think about it every day like I used to...

I've talked to my parents about it, and they were mostly supportive, though my dad is weirded out by it. ("Why would you have a problem with something your family has had done for generations? I don't get it.")
I guess it's fair for him to say that, but I don't have to agree.
My mom did say that they did think it through a lot though, which helped... Sadly, the doctors strongly recommended it (and still do). So I got screwed over by some random nurse. : )

[BondQoS]

If your penis is still growing, it might all be for naught. If you gain some skin, then your penis grows a little, that "extra" skin is gone. You would essentially be growing into the excess skin you coaxed.

[Tally]

Originally Posted by BondQoS

If your penis is still growing, it might all be for naught. If you gain some skin, then your penis grows a little, that "extra" skin is gone. You would essentially be growing into the excess skin you coaxed.

I am not sure this is entirely correct. As the body grows during youth, the penile skin grows as the penile structure grows. Otherwise, we all would have a penis the size that we had at birth, but it sure would be tight!

It may be that any skin added by tugging will also grow as you finish growing. Maybe the ideal time to restore is during puberty.

[BondQoS]

Originally Posted by Tally

I am not sure this is entirely correct. As the body grows during youth, the penile skin grows as the penile structure grows. Otherwise, we all would have a penis the size that we had at birth, but it sure would be tight!

Perhaps. I'm just thinking along the lines that you are simply aiding the natural process of skin growth as the penis grows.

I'm thinking that if I could stretch out the skin on my stomach (If I wanted to), and THEN I gained weight, that extra skin would simply be "filled in" instead of stretching more.

[Quark]

Originally Posted by Tally

It may be that any skin added by tugging will also grow as you finish growing. Maybe the ideal time to restore is during puberty.

Puberty definetly would be the idea time to restore because then would be less chances of the penis structure being contracted by the tight shaft skin.

It's well established that lifting weights during puberty is the best time too because the muscles are growing, so it's much easier to put on muscle mass.

Maybe the same theory can be applied to restoration.

[Lovehim]

How amazing, it broke my heart reading that last post. Poor Adam, what a sick world we live in indeed. I feel really teary now, my heart breaks for every person who suffer's the trauma of circumcision.

[DPX1]

I'm 17 years old and reading his blog really encouraged me to step up my restoration efforts.
As one of those crazy hormonal teenagers, I agree that it's a tremendously harrowing thing to consider the psychological ramifications of being butchered at birth. In the years where you're supposed to be discovering your body, you end up discovering how it was violated as well, and that's horrible. It weighs on my mind every day, and I'm developing serious issues of envy towards women and intact men, because they can have and enjoy what I never will, restoration is the only way I'm going to get over this. It helped to know that there was someone else just like me out there, doing something about his problem.

I logged on in a moment of doubt the other day and saw his last post and my heart sank. Who knew that a Gomco clamp could crush not only vital tissue, but the human spirit itself...

I'm gonna keep on going though. My 18th birthday's coming up and it doesn't seem right to "become a man" without becoming a whole man.

It's sad to see him go. I've been preaching intactivism to strangers on the bus for the past year or so, and won them over simply because they had no idea how horrible this "procedure" is. It's just ignorance on a massive scale, for the most part. We can make exponential progress if we all keep spreading the truth. Hardheaded people will remain in small numbers, but nature shows us that they die out sooner or later.

Keep on' tuggin', and keep on talkin'.