Removing Intactivism from a Part of my life
I deleted most of my 'intactivist' friends on Facebook, with the exception of guys like Ron Low. I did Youtube videos on the issue that got a decent number of views, but now I kind of regret letting this part of my life seep into other parts of my life.
A lot of the 'community' was making me uncomfortable (particularly the people adding me). It's creepy to see people who are like 90% naked in their photos in some bondage pose adding me.
I figure part of this is because of the messed up things circumcision does to people. To an extent I regret doing videos on the subject, and while I'll still bring up mutilation it's not exactly constructive to shove it in people's faces all the time. It's a fine line between wanting to keep you social life with people who potentially have deep cognitive dissonance over this issue, and wanting to help others. I feel the Youtube videos I've done is sufficient for now. I mostly want to finish restoring, and maybe I'll bem ore comfortable helping now. I've only been at the TLC for 5 weeks, so I have a long way to go. The whole issue is hard for me to deal with, but I don't think being around people who are completely defeated by it is healthy for me mentally. I've given a lot, but I have to live my life (circumcised or not, restoring or not).
So I will just be posting on here, for advice, helping others, and doing what I can, but I realize making this such a huge part of my life, I can't actually get away from it, and a lot of the mindsets of people who realize the horror of circumcision is just too corrosive for myself to handle anymore.